Small, Still, Voice
November 20th, 2008 at 1:31 am by MarkTags: asshats, business, introspection, philosophy, small-still-voice
Me: “Why does this keep happening? Work my ass off for a client, don’t get paid, and suddenly it’s all twisted into me being the bad guy…”
Voice: Desperation… so strong a need that you impair your own judgement and do business with people you know are going to take advantage.
Me: “Need clouds judgement… ”
Voice: …so you must stop making choices based on desperate need and begin establishing beneficial, long-term connections…
Me: “Get out of survival mode…”
Voice: …and stop trusting out of necessity rather than trusting logically.
Me: “But they’re still asshats…”
Voice: Then stop dealing with asshats.
Me: “Duplicitous… Four months ago you told me not to let my head rule my heart.”
Voice: That was different.
Me: “Why?”
Voice: You should never talk yourself out of faith in the things that make you happy.
Me: “And if I don’t, and I’m still unhappy?”
Voice: Are you?
Me: “It fell down again…”
Voice: Then you should ask yourself much you helped it along.
Me: “Every second of every day.”
Voice: You didn’t learn the first time, did you?
Me: “Learn what?”
Voice: Happiness should never be questioned. Accept it, and it’s yours.
November 20th, 2008 at 2:13am
That is what I have been trying so hard to get you to see
November 20th, 2008 at 3:15am
I thought I was trying to teach you that? And no, I can’t be happy when you’re not here. I love you, and I miss you so much.
November 20th, 2008 at 5:12am
hey it’s steph, i know u approve these i think..i wish u wouldn’t have changed ur password for ur hotmail..dude foreal..i didn’t mean to do that crap..i was just looking at it,,and the crap is messed up..i’m sorry though.. =[
November 20th, 2008 at 1:12pm
I understand where you are coming from Mark. I love you and I want to see you happy and successful. I am having the same kinds of problems and am struggling, but THERE IS LIGHT AT THE END OF THE TUNNEL. Whether you choose to see it or not. You are still alive.
November 20th, 2008 at 6:28pm
But don’t you find that when we have lost faith in humanity itself, there’s always someone around to restore it?
Maybe you need a good business lawyer to draw up a contract for you?
November 25th, 2008 at 10:25pm
Can’t you fix this so details are already pre-existing for your regs?
Now, chin up, come back and give us some more bitchy, cutting, sarcastic posts that we all love!
November 26th, 2008 at 6:16am
It does … unless you disabled cookies. Don’t do that.